Here Comes the Sun

Little darling
It's been a long, cold, lonely winter
Little darling
It feels like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun, and I say
It's alright


For months, I have been a deep pit. I was engaging in activities that were taking me further and further from where I am happy with myself.  Yes eating what ever you want when ever you feel like it can feel like "fun" but it comes at a price. Then pile on heavy fatigue and depression and you can kind of get the jist of the space I was in.  I knew I was there. No amount of cajoling, begging, pleading or beating the crap out of myself was going to make me move. 


And then it shifted. 


I am ready. 


I am ready to take care of my brain and body again.  I am ready to do the work.  To plan and prepare. To breathe deep. To sweat and lift heavy weights. To focus. To choose more often than not the steps that will get me to where I am going rather than the instant gratification. To nourish my body and my mind. To tap in to what I am passionate about. 


I am ready.